Full Life?

May 18, 2009 — 1 Comment

As i continue to get older, there are more and more times where i examine my life to see if it’s all i thought it would be… is it everything i want it to be… and that’s a pretty natural thing to do… at least it feels that way.

Often times when i have these “little moments” i start comparing my life to other people and their life or lifestyle… “i wish i had that” or “my life would be better if” or “i’m better than so and so” because of “this or that”… and i start to make justifications for what i do or complain about what i don’t have… and then i read verses like this…

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10

I read those words that Jesus said and i kind of stop in my tracks… and when i stop, i don’t normally see the error of my ways, right off the bat…

more often than not i think… “alright God, where’s my ‘full’ life?”

I start to feel like God promised me something He’s not delivering on… feeling so entitled… even robbed… like God owes me something. Pretty ridiculous if you ask me… but in the moment, i’m as right as i can be and heading down a slippery slope.

Then i have to sit back and examine who’s definition of ‘life to the full’ am i subscribing to? It’s usually not the one i should be.

I let my selfish nature dictate my level of drive or contentment… i allow ‘the thief’ to ‘kill steal and destroy’.

It’s a constant battle i face…

Anyone relate?